Realization

From the day I had started to make ground work for MBA, I have been apprehensive about it. I had the usual doubts and hopes, just like any other ordinary Indian.

Firstly, I was not interested in CAT, for a simple reason, the competition. The competition is huge, I felt that people were more obsessed with CAT than the MBA, I did not want to be one among the thousands (Read as: I can’t put that much effort). With this, my hopes of getting an admit in India…. No, wait, there is ISB, but I need a score close to 700 or even greater to be considered eligible for applying. But, with that score I can even apply to Harvard!! (Read as: I won’t crack the 700+ barrier, so ISB is out of the radar). And finally,I decided that there are no schools in India that is privileged to take me in. Yeah, I have found my reason to travel abroad.

And thus, I started the long journey of realization, sometime back in the summer of 2008. I was very naive then, both about what I wanted from my career and why I wanted an MBA? But, nevertheless I continued my pursue my dreams, I bombed the first time at GMAT, Later, I found out that I had use shitty materials will be helpful only in reducing my score.So I planned to take up XAT simultaneously with GMAT. The XAT was not a huge hit, but still I managed to get admit in LIBA, thanks to my religion, which I don’t believe. My second attempt at GMAT failed. So I had to take a decision, I had to either tell to myself that is my capacity and go to LIBA or stay foolish and deny the LIBA call. I decided to stay foolish, took my 3rd attempt, got a satisfactory score in GMAT. I decided ‘this is it‘.

After four months, I had made no progress with my MBA application. I had to do something in life. It was a worrying sign. Then, one fine day, out of nowhere a meatball hit my head that was the moment I realized that I should make my fourth attempt!!!! at GMAT. Now, I started to get obsessed with GMAT, people told me that ”I have gone crazy”. But, when wasn’t I crazy? I succeeded this time around. I got a good score. I made few elementary mistakes, else would have been competitive for ISB I had thoughts about the fifth attempt, but for time being, I have shelved the plans and started searching for schools that are eligible to be privileged and honored at my arrival to their school. But, wasn’t I satisfied after my 3rd attempt too?

So what has the realization journey taught me in these one and a half years?

• ISB is not lucky enough to have me
• So is Harvard…
• And not to forget the IIMs, they are also unlucky